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Celebrating The Gift of Life

Now that the due date is drawing close, we are playing the waiting game. I’m getting more and more anxious, especially when my friend, whose due date is a week after mine, has already delivered 2 nights ago. Then again, it was because there were slight complications. Compared to her, my pregnancy is a breeze and I thank God for that.

I’ve also been having a number of tummy cramps every night. The worst of it was on early Monday morningΒ  – kept me up for most of the nights. I was getting worried until I managed to fall back to sleep at about 5am, realizing that Baby Tarn isn’t ready to greet the world just yet.

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This is the latest picture we have of Baby Tarn, taken yesterday. I’m glad all is well, even after the night’s disturbance.

We also celebrated daddy’s birthday last night with something different. We decided to go Chinese and had mee sua and longevity buns.

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Of course there is also the usual vegetables, a daily affair in our family meals. Daddy’s birthday is today but he’ll be caught up with work. So mom worked hard in the kitchen yesterday to prepare this delicious and surprisingly filling dinner for us. Surprising because we usually have rice for dinner. So I thought noodles wouldn’t be so filling. Turns out I was wrong.

Mom has also been cleaning up baby’s room and wiping down the baby bed, clearing some space for baby’s clothes and sheets etc. I guess as the date draws nearer, everyone gets more excited. πŸ™‚

Our furkid of course wasn’t ignored throughout all the excitement. He even had a lot of treats to eat during daddy’s birthday dinner!

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Since I started my maternity leave and have been working from home, furkid and I have been spending a lot of time together. I just hope he won’t feel too left out for the first month or so when baby Tarn arrives. Good thing hubby will be around to help out. πŸ™‚

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Worst Things About Pregnancy

I feel like I’m going back to the way I was during my first trimester. I’m tired, nauseated, and I have little appetite. We just got back from the doctor’s and he said to be ready as the baby can come any time now. I wish I could describe to you how I am feeling. I am nervous, apprehensive, excited, scared, troubled, all at the same time. Other than the usual worries – the pain of child birth, what type of mother I am going to be, if Baby Tarn is going to be born healthy… I also worry about family matters.

I think I’ve mentioned before that we live in a rather small apartment. Rooms are not as spacious – you put a queen sized bed, a wardrobe and a study desk and there’s hardly any space for anything else. And because this isn’t exactly our place – we are still staying with my parents while waiting for our own place to be built finish – I do feel like sometimes I am intruding on my folks.

When you live with other people, there are bound to be disagreements. And it is especially hard when you have different lifestyles. Living in our own place would eliminate a lot of my worries, but would also create a few others. Even before baby Tarn is born, I feel the judgement. Mom is saying I should have gotten my driver’s license earlier (yes, I can’t drive). Mom is saying people will make fun of baby Tarn’s name (we have picked an English name for her but I’ll only reveal it when she’s born ;)). Mother in law is telling me I shouldn’t rock the baby to sleep. Some people say it’s wrong that I’m not letting baby Tarn sleep with us in our room (honestly, there is no space for her cot). There are so many other things that I can’t even get my mind around right now…

I’m already feeling the pressure of being a first time mom. Luckily, hubby is there to remind me that any final decision made is between me and him and that I don’t have to feel pressurized into following what other people say. To tell you the truth, I really don’t know what I’d do without hubby. I see all these worries as huge unsolvable problems like the paranoid person I am and he turns them into simple matters that can be reasoned with. He puts my mind at ease.

Anyway, I was checking up on some pregnancy thing online the other day and I came across a very witty blog post about the worst things about being pregnant. So I thought I’d do one of my own. So here we go!

1. Nausea

Definitely one of the worst! Some people have it so bad, they have to be hospitalized for dehydration. While I didn’t get to that stage, I did vomit until I lost about 2 to 3kg during the few weeks and it didn’t let up until I was midway into my second trimester. The only food I felt liked eating were fried unhealthy stuff like fast food! Not a good diet for a pregnant woman!

2. Exhaustion

I feel tired the moment I wake up. How is that even possible! I read in the pregnancy book I bought that being pregnant can sometimes feel like you’re running a marathon everyday. I looked so tired my dad got so worried and told hubby that I’m really frail and that he should watch out for me more. Haha! It’s good to have people around you who cares. πŸ™‚

3. Discharge

This is by far one of the worst. I go through 2 panty liners everyday. And when you live in a country that’s 33 degrees Celsius all year round, that area can get really uncomfortable and sweaty and just down right disgusting. Washing it twice a day sometimes doesn’t feel enough. And it gets worse at the end of the pregnancy. Yuck.

4. Body aches

I had sharp pains on my right hip and leg for a few weeks. It hurts with every movement I made. It is especially troublesome because not only is it painful to do absolutely anything at all, I take forever to get to where I need to go, so much so that I think twice about whether I want to be moving at all, even if it is to get a glass of water.

Right now in the 3rd trimester, I have really sore legs, feet and hands. Yes, hands. if I don’t move them for a while (like when I sleep) it hurts when I start to move them again. Even now it hurts when I make a fist. The bottom of my feet has a really sore feeling. It’s actually a kind of pain I can’t really explain… it’s just.. sore all the time. I guess it’s the water retention.

Also, throughout the pregnancy, I have this pain on my calf.

It helps to get hubby to massage my legs for me every night when he’s around. πŸ™‚ Mind you he uses his bull strength to press on my feet and calf, but it hurts so good.

5. Frequent Urination

From the beginning of the pregnancy, I already had to wake up multiple times to pee. It gets especially hard throughout the pregnancy because of body aches. And also the peeing when you sneeze or laugh – those aren’t pretty either. That’s why it’s important to do the kegels.

6. Stretch marks

I know of some lucky women who don’t have them. Mine are terrible. From the side of my hips, to the bottom of my belly, to the insides of my thighs, to my boobs… And this is even after I start putting ointments at the start of the pregnancy, before I even showed.

7. Worrying

Throughout the pregnancy, I worry if the baby is alright, if she’s growing fine, is she kicking and moving enough. Then there are tests and scans and I worry if something bad will show up. On one of our tests, we got a small scare – her kidneys are larger than normal. Even though it all turned out fine, I remember worrying so much. It was something I wasn’t prepared for. When we got pregnant for the first time, it was all excitement, and guessing the baby’s gender, and buying of new stuff, reading up on new things… No one prepares you for the amount of worry you will experience. I guess that’s one thing that will never go away. You will worry even until they are adults themselves. πŸ™‚

Every woman have different pregnancy experiences and these are mine. Hopefully the next time I can write about the perks of being pregnant. haha. Before the baby comes and take away most of my time, I shall try to write more often. Until then, stay healthy and strong, mommas and pappas!

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Creating My Own Family

Mom and Dad just visited sis and I always look forward to their return. Mostly because they always come with gifts! Sis told me she bought her niece many adorable clothes and I just couldn’t wait to get my hands on it!

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I’m thinking of packing the onesie with cloud prints one to the hospital. πŸ™‚

With this handy picture app sis introduced me, I managed to take a better picture of all the things Godma Sim bought for Baby Tarn too.

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I am loving those tights! They seldom sell tights here, maybe because we live in a country that is 33 degrees all year round. But babies just look so adorable in them!

Da Yi Zhang also got his niece some interactive books.

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Not that Baby Tarn gets to interact with them just yet. So in the mean time, our furkid is keeping an eye on them! haha

We aren’t short on soft toys too.

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The Scooby came together with the books from Da Yi Zhang and it talks! Oh well, I am certainly feeling very blessed indeed. πŸ™‚

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Pregnancy wise, it is getting harder for me to move. Not that it hasn’t already been a chore. Just that my belly is getting heavier and my pelvic area hurts. I tire easily and I am cranky and snappy with people. Not all the time, though. But it’s bad enough to make me want to avoid things and situations that I know will tick me off. Sometimes, I just can’t help it and words just slip right out of my mouth that I immediately regret saying. That’s why I choose to keep quiet and smile. Hubby says it can come off as rude. But I think that’s better than my saying something that I don’t want to be saying. If I can, I’d retreat into my room and cuddle with the furkid.

Hubby has also been away for work for a while. It can be difficult without a support. But when I read about husbands who have to leave their families for months for work, I suddenly feel silly. But no matter how many days hubby is away, I am sure to miss him.

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I am really excited about getting stuff for Baby Tarn, from bed to stroller to car seats. But mom isn’t too thrilled. She is expecting guests next week and now all the baby stuff we bought has to be cramped into the study to make way for the guests. I have to admit that I was quite upset. I am due in less than a month and am hardly in any state to be host to guests. Plus I don’t think I should delay buying the baby stuff any longer. Most importantly, it is suppose to be a process that is happy and exciting.

But it is mom and dad’s home after all and they are allowed to have whatever guests they want. I guess deep down I just feel sad that they aren’t as hyped up about it as I am. It is also making me more eager to get my own place so I don’t impose on my parents. It’s sad that I feel that I am imposing on them though…

Nevertheless, hubby says he’ll be free to go buy the outstanding stuff we need for the baby this weekend. And I am not letting anything dampen my spirits. πŸ™‚ I’ve never really accomplished much in my life. And now that I am creating a human being and creating my own family, I couldn’t feel more grateful and just simply and undoubtedly happy, for the lack of a better word. πŸ™‚