I feel like I’m going back to the way I was during my first trimester. I’m tired, nauseated, and I have little appetite. We just got back from the doctor’s and he said to be ready as the baby can come any time now. I wish I could describe to you how I am feeling. I am nervous, apprehensive, excited, scared, troubled, all at the same time. Other than the usual worries – the pain of child birth, what type of mother I am going to be, if Baby Tarn is going to be born healthy… I also worry about family matters.
I think I’ve mentioned before that we live in a rather small apartment. Rooms are not as spacious – you put a queen sized bed, a wardrobe and a study desk and there’s hardly any space for anything else. And because this isn’t exactly our place – we are still staying with my parents while waiting for our own place to be built finish – I do feel like sometimes I am intruding on my folks.
When you live with other people, there are bound to be disagreements. And it is especially hard when you have different lifestyles. Living in our own place would eliminate a lot of my worries, but would also create a few others. Even before baby Tarn is born, I feel the judgement. Mom is saying I should have gotten my driver’s license earlier (yes, I can’t drive). Mom is saying people will make fun of baby Tarn’s name (we have picked an English name for her but I’ll only reveal it when she’s born ;)). Mother in law is telling me I shouldn’t rock the baby to sleep. Some people say it’s wrong that I’m not letting baby Tarn sleep with us in our room (honestly, there is no space for her cot). There are so many other things that I can’t even get my mind around right now…
I’m already feeling the pressure of being a first time mom. Luckily, hubby is there to remind me that any final decision made is between me and him and that I don’t have to feel pressurized into following what other people say. To tell you the truth, I really don’t know what I’d do without hubby. I see all these worries as huge unsolvable problems like the paranoid person I am and he turns them into simple matters that can be reasoned with. He puts my mind at ease.
Anyway, I was checking up on some pregnancy thing online the other day and I came across a very witty blog post about the worst things about being pregnant. So I thought I’d do one of my own. So here we go!
Definitely one of the worst! Some people have it so bad, they have to be hospitalized for dehydration. While I didn’t get to that stage, I did vomit until I lost about 2 to 3kg during the few weeks and it didn’t let up until I was midway into my second trimester. The only food I felt liked eating were fried unhealthy stuff like fast food! Not a good diet for a pregnant woman!
I feel tired the moment I wake up. How is that even possible! I read in the pregnancy book I bought that being pregnant can sometimes feel like you’re running a marathon everyday. I looked so tired my dad got so worried and told hubby that I’m really frail and that he should watch out for me more. Haha! It’s good to have people around you who cares. 🙂
This is by far one of the worst. I go through 2 panty liners everyday. And when you live in a country that’s 33 degrees Celsius all year round, that area can get really uncomfortable and sweaty and just down right disgusting. Washing it twice a day sometimes doesn’t feel enough. And it gets worse at the end of the pregnancy. Yuck.
4. Body aches
I had sharp pains on my right hip and leg for a few weeks. It hurts with every movement I made. It is especially troublesome because not only is it painful to do absolutely anything at all, I take forever to get to where I need to go, so much so that I think twice about whether I want to be moving at all, even if it is to get a glass of water.
Right now in the 3rd trimester, I have really sore legs, feet and hands. Yes, hands. if I don’t move them for a while (like when I sleep) it hurts when I start to move them again. Even now it hurts when I make a fist. The bottom of my feet has a really sore feeling. It’s actually a kind of pain I can’t really explain… it’s just.. sore all the time. I guess it’s the water retention.
Also, throughout the pregnancy, I have this pain on my calf.
It helps to get hubby to massage my legs for me every night when he’s around. 🙂 Mind you he uses his bull strength to press on my feet and calf, but it hurts so good.
5. Frequent Urination
From the beginning of the pregnancy, I already had to wake up multiple times to pee. It gets especially hard throughout the pregnancy because of body aches. And also the peeing when you sneeze or laugh – those aren’t pretty either. That’s why it’s important to do the kegels.
6. Stretch marks
I know of some lucky women who don’t have them. Mine are terrible. From the side of my hips, to the bottom of my belly, to the insides of my thighs, to my boobs… And this is even after I start putting ointments at the start of the pregnancy, before I even showed.
Throughout the pregnancy, I worry if the baby is alright, if she’s growing fine, is she kicking and moving enough. Then there are tests and scans and I worry if something bad will show up. On one of our tests, we got a small scare – her kidneys are larger than normal. Even though it all turned out fine, I remember worrying so much. It was something I wasn’t prepared for. When we got pregnant for the first time, it was all excitement, and guessing the baby’s gender, and buying of new stuff, reading up on new things… No one prepares you for the amount of worry you will experience. I guess that’s one thing that will never go away. You will worry even until they are adults themselves. 🙂
Every woman have different pregnancy experiences and these are mine. Hopefully the next time I can write about the perks of being pregnant. haha. Before the baby comes and take away most of my time, I shall try to write more often. Until then, stay healthy and strong, mommas and pappas!