Walking around the shopping centre yesterday and seeing so many parents, I wonder if they felt as overwhelmed as I do when they had their first child. I wonder if they were as nervous as I was bringing their baby out for the first few times. Before Aurora was born, I looked at all the new parents and always thought that they seem to know what they were doing. Now as a new parent myself, I wonder if people look at us and can see it on our faces that we have absolutely not idea what we are doing. Haha.
It was a shopping day for mommy. Hubby told me about the Babies R Us at the shopping mall and we wanted to check it out together. We were a little unprepared, I think. So when I came back, I realised there were a few things that I should have gotten. Oh well. Next time then. But we did get a couple of items for our November holiday. Oh my goodness. Just thinking about it gives me the goosebumps. I am excited, nervous and frightened all at the same time. Flying for the first time with a baby is going to be challenging, especially for a kan chiong spider like me! haha I am counting on hubby to keep me calm and collected. >.<
During our weekly visit to Ah Ma’s place this week, hubby managed to get some of his baby photos.
You can hardly tell them apart! She definitely is daddy’s girl alright! I just hope she gets daddy’s intelligence too! Please don’t be like mommy. I’m a blur sotong!
I know I said I’d take a picture of our family’s first walk together, but yes, blur me forgot. However, I did remember to take one after the walk.
Hubby carried Aurora in the Moby Wrap while I walked our furkid. Thanks to Godma Sim for introducing us to the wrap and reminding me that it takes a while and some patience to get Aurora comfortable. I would have given up after the first few tries when Aurora cried. Hubby managed to do it effortlessly. I tell you, those stereotypes about fathers are wrong. He is much better at all these parenting stuff than I. If he had boobs, I bet he’d be breastfeeding Aurora much better than I do. Haha
He wanted me to be the one with the Moby wrap the next day to boost my confidence. I was quite surprised by how comfortable Aurora was. She sleeps the whole walk through. I thought it would be hot and uncomfortable for her inside but I guess the closeness brings to her a sense of comfort and safety. We will definitely moby wrap her for our November holiday!
So far, being new parents has brought to me a greater sense of appreciation for my parents. All the patience, hard work and heartache ma and pa must have gone through bringing us up is no small thing. And when they grow old, it is only right that we take care of them with as much love and patience and as they have showered us with our whole lives. Not only my own parents, but hubby’s parents as well. I have to admit I am not close to them. But they must have been awesome parents to have brought up such a man who is now the father of my baby. And for that I am ever so thankful.
Hubby made me realise that I have been second guessing myself a lot. Should I continue this way, I’d burn myself out in no time. Lesson #12493 of being a parent – there is no absolute right or wrong in whatever decision you make for your family. To quote Phin Wong, opinions are like belly buttons, everyone has one. And you will undoubtedly be your own worst critic. But hubby and I will do the best we can together and hope that when Aurora grows up, she does not have crooked teeth from sucking the pacifier, that she remembers to cover her mouth when she coughs and make sure she doesn’t learn any swear words because those are the most important things you should be concerned about as a parent. (There’s an opinion for you.)
Well, as for now, all we want is for her to be safe, healthy, and most importantly, happy. And we intend to do that by bringing her up in a safe, healthy and happy family. 🙂 I just pray that not only does she stay safe, healthy and happy, she also will not blame us too much for all the mistakes we are about to make and have already made as her very blur and kan cheong parents. Ok, to be fair, only one of us is blur and kan cheong.